This is hard. Perhaps the hardest thing I've ever been through. It feels much like when Bob had his stroke back in 2010 and was in a coma for so long. Except then there was hope. And now, there is none.
Boomer is not doing well. It's sort of like a "death watch" for him. I had scheduled the vet to come last week, Sunday, to put him to sleep -- but she couldn't make it until later in the day and somehow Boomer perked up and rebounded. Yesterday and today, he is not eating. I have some new pills for him, appetite stimulate and something for nausea. We go, day by day. Waiting.
Zenith began vomiting blood. Pure blood. I took her in for an ultrasound and they found a "fluid filled mass" on her liver. I take her on Wednesday for exploratory surgery and biopsy. Pray it isn't cancer.
Bubba, our good friend and car mechanic, is in the hospital having suffered a stroke. Bubba, who took me to the funeral parlor to collect Bob's ashes. Who was building Bob an urn for his ashes...
Chris is sick, having a raging infection stemming from her foot. She may have to have a toe amputated.
Ripley doing better, I spend evenings curled up with him on Bob's hospital bed. This house has become a lonely, sad place.
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Oh, Diane, how heart-breaking to have your family suffering so much after having suffered so long. Please know that we are all praying for you and hoping for healing to come to the pink house.
Sending you love
Sending comfort and courage to you. We are all pulling for you to find peace. Know we love you and hope you find comfort in our long distance hugs.
Love Peggy
Sending you courage and love.
Hi Diane - your sadness takes me back to a place where I was after Brad's stroke. I was in such despair - I sent an email out to everyone who was in my contacts whether i knew them or not- it was a shout out to the universe - I said - "Somebody tell me it will get better"....that was a very sad and lonely place that i was in. Well it did not get better for quite a long time - in fact it got worse....oh what a journey we have been cast upon. Every part of this stroke journey is so difficult. Your story is so unique as Bob took his condition with what seems for the most part such a positive attitude. As much work as it was he sounds like he was a real good friend and buddy to have around.
So - though your loneliness must be horrible and every inch of every space a memory....i do believe it will get better. It is life's seredipitous way of taking and giving. But then I have not ventured in the territory in which you now wander. It scares me to think of it.
I guess I just know what it feels like to be at the end of hope and I did come through it. For that I am hopeful for all of us.
Your story has been an inspirational one. Thank you for sharing all of it - the good the bad and the ugly.
I am so sorry that so much is "piling on" as you deal with the loss of your soulmate. I know and feel some of what you are going through with your heart break, but I don't have any answers. As always, you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Hugs & prayers,
Dan
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