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Thursday, July 26, 2012

Almost Like a Person

Yesterday morning, Bob told me, "I feel almost like a person."

Of course, he didn't come out and say this in one fell swoop.  The conversation went something like this:

Bob:  I feel... almos lie... gurple.

Me:  Huh?

Bob:  I feel... almos like... gerpons.

Me:  OK. You said, I feel almost like-- something. I can't understand the last word. Say it again.

Bob:  I feel... almost like... gerbles.

Me:  You feel almost like gerbils?

Bob:  No!

Me:  OK, say it again. Slower.

Bob:  I... feel... almost... like.... a.... purspin.

Me:  Purspin? Purse pin? --um-- person? You feel almost like a person?

Bob:  Yes. I feel almost like...a person.

Me:  Well, that's silly. Of course, you're a person. You're certainly not a cat.

Later, I thought about this little conversation. And you know, it rather broke my heart. Because how did he feel before? Like a non-person?

And why does he only feel almost like a person?

This morning, I am still thinking about that conversation. Though now I'm thinking it's a good sign. That Bob is coming back to me. That his brain is healing and he is feeling "more normal"...

Just my thoughts.


Rebecca Dutton said...

Perhaps Bob is becoming more confident about his speech. An ethereal comment about being a person is a leap up from barking "you."

Anonymous said...

Love it...He is coming around..

metalgirl162002 said...

I suppose he doesn't feel /completely/ like a person because of the things he still can't do or do on his own. When I was first diagnosed with Asperger's I didn't feel like a person either, more like an alien or something. It takes work and time to feel like a person sometimes.

Anonymous said...

I suspect he's saying just how he feels at this time. It's a big step and says a lot about how he sees his progress. Just one example is Bob being able to express himself in a full sentence now compared to what he could say just a few months ago. Your dedicated and hard work is paying off. Hugs, Dan

Elizabeth, John and Jack said...

Sounds like great news. I remember the first time I felt "almost normal", it was a fleeting moment....but glorious! Its so hard to describe the daze I live in most of the time. Still waiting for the clarity to be permanant.

barbpolan said...

Yes, yes, yes! It's a complete, meaningful and thought-provoking sentence!