So now...

It's officially "Stay In Place" it was "Shelter in Place" --- what's the difference? Then "no discretionary travel" and now "no non-discretionary travel"... huh? Double negatives? ... jeepers

I know grocery stores and pharmacies are still open... but that's about it...

So been staying at home.... Had my Therapy appointment via telephone...

For all those who told me I needed to get out of the house, get involved, volunteer, etc.!  ..... I guess now I have real excuse not to....

Kona (who recovered beautifully) from whatever was causing her vomit/diarrhea a few weeks ago,  and was playing in the pool and happy......  suddenly started vomiting Friday...... once (no concern, dogs puke, it's a fact) twice (huh?) third/fourth time (freak out!)...

Gave her anti-nausea meds and pre/probiotics... and have been watching her like a hawk....  no vomiting since Friday (when she puked 4 times) --- seems much better but she looks tired, just want my nutty, jumpy, stupid I love you silly Kona back to normal...  She does seem to be getting there. But I am a concerned, worried dog-mom....

I know I could be weeding the garden (it needs it), organizing my record collection (been thinking about doing that) or organizing drawers or closets, or damn, I REALLY should be writing! But find myself paralyzed  -- watching the dog (is she sick? is she ok?) and me, heck, no energy ----  just watching TV, way too much.....  and not getting much sleep -- nightmares...

Hope everyone else is doing better.

Sheltering In Place

Yesterday afternoon got the call from the county that everyone should "shelter in place" and no non--essential travel allowed. Beaches closed. Malls, stores closed. Bars, restaurants, closed. Parks closed. Etc.

Went out two days ago, bought every loaf of PetFresh (Kona's food) on the shelf as she is allergic to so many dog foods and this one is one she tolerates, stocked up on cat food -- but the shelves were empty as far as toilet paper, tissues, paper towels, bread, meat....

Went out Friday early in the morning as I heard they were going to start shutting down stores.... worse than when hurricane is coming.. never seen anything like it...  Found one PetFresh for Kona, no toilet paper anywhere (four different stores) found my cigs at a gas station and two rolls of Bounty paper towel, made a stop at the liquor store, as gonna need that...

Bought toilet paper on E-bay for 3 times it's normal price...

Normally, I don't go out that much, do have occasional lunches with friends and a friend and I had concert tickets for Graham Nash which got cancelled and I usually don't mind staying home, as that is a writer's life --- but when you know you can't leave the house unless "essential" ... it's really stressful.....

And feeling horribly alone and lonely....

How is everyone else holding up?

Channelling Kona

Ever wonder what your dog is thinking? Or trying to tell you? I got that chance last Sunday at church.

Near the end of every service, they have two or three mediums who give spontaneous readings to the group and one medium stood up and said, "I have message for the lady in back, your traveling companion would like to say something to you."

Kona, who had been lying on the floor, sat up at that moment and stared at me.

He went on, "He wants, no wait.... it's a she, right?"

Me: "Yes."

"First, she wants to thank you for taking care of her..." (Which I took to mean while she was sick these past 3-4 weeks)

"And she wants you to know she loves going places with you and she is so very happy that you are her mom. And finally, she loves you very very much."

Aw....

and you can bet that brought a tear to my eye...

Scam calls, Telemarketers, grrr.. but I figured out a way to stop some of them! Maybe....

So many of you know I've been plagued by hundreds of fake creditor calls (which freak me out as they threaten to take me to court and still freak me out, even though no one has served me with any papers yet, and my attorney says just ignore them....) and then other scam phishing type calls, i.e. the IRS, or Social Security or Microsoft or "you have won" some contest I never entered, or the organizations wanting donations and being so persistent (i.e. can I put you down for $10.00) -- which I'm sure many of you get -- so I began just not answering any unknown telephone call coming in, figuring if it was a friend they'd leave a message and if not... blocking calls from unknown numbers...

Well, tonight I am feeling lonely, a case of the blues, hard time writing today, jeepers my book ms. is a mess, tearing my hair out over it, thinking I really would like to talk to someone but didn't want to bother anyone with my problems.... wondering who I could call to "dump" my issues on and thinking OMG what a mess I am to not even have one someone to call when I feel like shit, some one who would just listen and I could rant/vent to, someone who would tell me I'm OK, don't jump off the bridge yet! but couldn't think of anyone... anyway..

 The phone rings, an "unknown caller" on caller ID... So I pick it up. Call goes like this.

Me: Hello?

Caller:  Hello!  Is this Diane?

Me: Yes. Whose calling please?

Caller: This is Ryan. How are you today? (I don't know any Ryan -- by the tone of his voice though I'm figuring this guy is selling something or trying to get a donation or some sort of thing like that...)

Me: Well, my dog was vomiting and had diarrhea for over three weeks, I've been worried sick even though she's better now, I am so stressed, and had a really bad day working today, and you know my husband died and I miss him so much and I feel like I haven't a friend in the world and I am so lonely and really want to just talk to someone...

CLICK  He hung up!

HA HA HA!

Heck, guess that cheered me up more than I imagined.

So if you get a scam phishing call, dump all your problems on them! Worked for me.

But probably wouldn't work on those scam creditor calls, cause creditors have no heart...

On second thought, it might work with creditors --- start talking about dog vomit and diarrhea in detail. Just saying. ha!

Now what to do to stop those irritating robocalls....

Finally Some Good News!

All of Kona's lab work (urine, feces, blood) came back negative! And Kona is back on her regular dog food, tolerating it fine and the diarrhea is also clearing up.

She does seem a bit tired, but who wouldn't after being so sick for so long...  Still don't really know what caused her to be so sick, perhaps she got into something that didn't agree with her... I can't think of anything, but people are always tossing garbage and half-eaten food, etc. on the ground and sidewalks and maybe she gulped something down that I didn't notice....

So, looks like we are out of the danger zone!!! Thank God!

And thank you, dear readers, all for your prayers, healing light, thoughts and support. I do appreciate it.

And a very special thank you to my friend/vet for going the extra mile and dealing with me and my anxiety!!!!

OK- what should I blog about?

A blog is online journal, so I blog about what's happening in my life...

All was well with my blog as long as I was posting about Bob and his recovery, which of course ended in his death...

So --- I have tried to keep up this blog, even though Bob is gone.....

I have wrote about grief,.. everyone seems sick about hearing about that. Though grief affects me daily.

I blogged about mediums  --  but got bad responses, or no responses  and -- damn had a great reading with John Holland (national known, author of six books), saw him in person in 2017 -- signed up for a reading in 2017 and finally got an appointment over the phone this past November ---wanted so much to write a blog post about his reading, but I couldn't download the recording which I wanted to refer to before posting and asked a friend to help with download and she said he was a fraud.... and I should not waste money on that -- so didn't post that reading.

Had another reading from Jennifer Farmer, another medium, not as well known but-- very interesting,  she came to my house, in fact she met Chris in my hallway!  But still, seems no one wants to hear about "whoo-whoo" readings. So I don't feel comfortable to blog about those...

So I post about Kona, being sick because I am worried about her, still am as she still has diarrhea and I'm putting together a special diet for her everyday --- but.. well, um I guess can't talk about that either... as people get upset about it.....

What do you want to hear about?

Hey!  It's 59 degrees in Florida and my sprinkler system is broke...  I think there are rats in my attic... stray cats yowling at night, and the my damn neighbor is taking down his fence, which means I have to spend around $4000 to close the hole his fence will leave in my yard  -- anything else?

Tell me, please what should I blog about? What would you want to read? What do you want to know?

I am still writing my memoir, far from done, don't want to lose my faithful blog readers.... I love you all!

Thanks