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Wednesday, July 19, 2017

One Fish -- RIP

When Chris went into the hospital in Dec. 2015, she asked me to take care of her two Betta fish. I am not a "fish person" but agreed thinking it was a temporary situation, and didn't know the names of the fish so I called them "One Fish" and "Two Fish" after, you know, Dr. Seuss One fish, two fish, red fish, blue fish. As one was red (on the fins) and the other bluish green....

Anyway, you know Chris died a year ago in June.

I have had One Fish and Two Fish since --- and they became a part of my little family. Daily rituals. Feed Kona, feed Ripley, feed fish... you know routine.

This a.m. found One Fish dead..... waited awhile to make sure... by afternoon still not moving, sort curled on the bottom on the aquarium -- gently scooped him/her up -- no movement, no response, so after making sure --- buried him/her by Zenith and Boomer's ashes in the back yard.

This shouldn't bother me so much, but I have been in and out of tears all afternoon -- I mean, jeepers, it's just a fish -- and I am not even a "fish person"....

But part of Chris went with that fish.

Now I am worried about "Two Fish", who is acting strangely out of character -- do fish grieve? They were not in the same aquarium as you can't put two Bettas together as they will fight. But they did live next door to each other....

And I am just rambling about silly fish...

Tomorrow another EMDR therapy appointment -- don't know if I am ready.....

Friday, July 14, 2017

One Stressful Week

So this week ends with a bang -- my computer was hacked! I don't know how it happened, but on and off all week when I tried to send an e-mail or post something, my computer would redirect to strange websites telling me that my Mac was infected and to call 1-888 numbers to talk to "an expert" at Apple Support but the phone numbers did not match the phone that I have for Apple Support and first I just ignored it as some phishing type of scam until yesterday I couldn't access anything on my computer at all! And finally called the "real" Apple Support phone number and ended up on the phone with the "real" Tech, who told me that yes, indeed, these "pop up" windows were a scam.

After about an hour of doing this and that, with the Tech "sharing" my screen and finding strange things like "wormhole" and "Megabug" on my "activities pages", and trying to delete them, some successfully, some which would not budge, the Support Tech suggested downloading a software program that took nearly five hours to download, and while that was downloading, he told me there was a concern that I might lose everything on my computer.


So here I am frantically trying to move documents and photos onto flash drives and I am up until 3 a.m. last night....

I was going to blog about having Reiki therapy yesterday, which my therapist suggested instead of another EMDR session. She suggested this because I was pretty much a nervous wreck when I walked in -- having had a bad week with Kona being sick (she is better now) and experiencing a couple of dissociative incidents, plumbing issues and going through a really severe thunderstorm Wednesday evening that left me shaking and crying as thunder and lightening boomed and flashed around the house, and me alone hugging the cat and dog, missing Bob so much -- and well, just being stressed and sad and grief stricken...

Now, I've heard of Reiki but never had done it or even seen it done, but was ready try anything. The experience was interesting, the therapist holds her hands over and sometimes on different parts of your body, starting at your head and working down ending with your feet, the idea is to transfer "positive energy" and remove "negative energy" and while doing this, the lights are turned down and very relaxing music is playing the background. I found myself feeling quite calm and relaxed after the therapy.

Then I come home to blog and nothing is working on my computer! aargh! So much for "calm and relaxation". I was up all night waiting for new software to install. At midnight, when the thing was reading it had one more hour to go, I decided to go for a midnight swim.

And am so relieved that my computer is working perfectly this morning and I have not lost any files... phew!

Sunday, July 2, 2017

Kona's Birthday - 6 years old!

I fostered/adopted her 6/25/15 and this picture is of her with her former owner -- she was almost 4 years old,  91 lbs and look at those nails! She was used as a breeding dog, for a "backyard puppy mill" and got no exercise and didn't even know "sit" --

Her first day home with me  ---
Then training, exercise, proper diet, down to 75 lbs. where she should be --

Now one happy damn dog!
I "rescued" her from
the FL Labrador Retriever Rescue Society --- but I must ask, truthfully, who rescued who?
Don't know how I could have made it without her -- she is now certified/licensed/registered service dog -- for me
Happy Birthday, Kona!
And yes, she got a Doggie Ice Cream Sunday at the Dairy Inn and lots of tennis balls and treats!