Signs (Part 2)

 While I was writing my "Signs" post, a suddenly heard a soft voice seemingly coming from nowhere. I stopped and listened. I checked to see if I'd left the radio on in the bedroom, but no, it wasn't that. Maybe someone outside? I checked, but no one was there. Went back to my desk, still hearing the voice figured out it was coming from my Mini Mac.... weird.

So I listened. I had to nearly put my ear to the thing, then I recognized the voice of a medium I had gone to about a year or more ago. She had given me a recording of our reading and it was playing on my computer. I listened, transfixed. She was saying, "It was my time. There wasn't anything you could've done. We both now I felt that way before and nothing happened. My number was up. I'm sorry I didn't get to say goodbye and I love you."

"Now I'm seeing blue eyes, beautiful blues eyes. I know your eyes are blue but were Bob's eye's blue? Because I'm seeing two sets of blue eyes looking lovingly at each other."

"He says, Thank you for letting me know I was enough. You gave me the best years of my life. Even when it wasn't easy, you were always there for me. No one ever treated me that way. You were my true wife, even though I was married before, You are my true wife and we will always be married. He says he still feels married to you."

There was more, I can't remember it all. I couldn't figure out how to turn it off. I certainly didn't turn it on. So I listened, transfixed. I do remember her saying "share our stories, it's your life's purpose, don't forget to share the good times as well as the bad." And ended with "Until we meet again."

That's pretty much what I remember.

I was going to write about a reading I had gotten at the spiritualist church. This was when I was asking for a sign from Bob. I asked Bob to come to church with me, stand behind me, make yourself known, so I could a reading.

When the first medium stepped to podium he pointed me out and said, "There is a man standing right behind you. A young man, when I say young I mean early 30's maybe?" (well that confused me at first but then I remembered my mediumship teacher telling us that spirit can choose the way they appear, most choose to appear as they were in the prime of their lives)

The medium continued, "He's telling me that even though his life was shorter than he had hoped, you made all the difference. You made him truly happy. Now he's telling me that you helped him so much but he had some kind of cognitive problem" The medium puts his hand to his head, "Something wrong with his brain? And that made it difficult to speak and there were so many times he wanted to thank you for everything you did for him but he couldn't find the words, say the words. But he thanks you now. He's very thankful for everything and tells me he watches over you and will always be with you. And he loves you very much. I'll leave you with that." 

And he goes on to the next person.

So that concludes "Signs"...  And I am typing a little better now, but excuse the typos still not up to snuff with that bad hand.

PS: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR FATHER, 85 years old today! Love you, Dad!

I know...

I let everyone hanging. Elsa came through as a CAT 1, fortunately no big damage here, except for scaring me shitless and the time of taking things (patio porch furniture/decor etc) in then out again, sandbagging, etc. Elsa did blow out my HVAC unit, which thankfully is still under warranty and fixed within a couple of days. But waiting for repairmen... such a pain

Then a termite swarm in my bathroom, grrr... but termite company came and re-treated the house, spent a lot of time, scoping out the house, looking behind doors, closets, moving furniture, so that I could tell the termite guy where there was evidence of termites, wings and such... so got that done.

Funny, aside about Ripley, who was (as always) snoozing in my office closet. Termite guy went to look inside the closet and I warned him there was probably a cat in there. And I hear the termite guy, "Oh! There you are! What a pretty kitty! You are a sweetheart! What a sweetie.." Whence Ripley shot out of the closet like a banshee, I do believe paws never touched the ground. ha! So much for the sweetheart kitty. I tell you, Rip was traumatized, didn't come out of hiding until that night when he poked his head out of the bedroom, looking both ways down the hall, then ran to "mom" and jumped on my lap.

Anyway..

Another day wasted arguing with a medical billing department regarding my hand surgery. I'd had a nerve conduction test which I was told, up front that the insurance wouldn't pay for, so I self-payed $370.00 and thought that was that until I get a bill for $1900+ for same nerve conduction test and no credit for my $370. Anyway all that straightened out now, but took hours to straighten out.  (At least I hope it's straightened out!))

Then, got a message from a man in Australia who had read my blog and was wondering if I'd like to contribute my thoughts, experiences etc. to "MindMasters" classes on "Mindful Communication" for caregivers. Really not sure about this, but he sent me "modules" i.e. videos to review and I haven't even got through them all. I am flattered, but not sure how I could contribute. Still have to watch the rest.

Plus some issues I had to take care of with my banker as my sis died, needed to update beneficiaries...plus now I need to update my own will, haven't even gotten that far.... been busy

So just thought I'd post an update, I will be back to finish "Signs Part 2" meanwhile my crepe myrtle tree has been blooming gangbusters! First time since Bob died......

It does make me smile. 

Waiting for Elsa

Sorry, was going to post earlier but things got in the way. Financial stuff, my sister's estate, my medical bills, now Tropical Storm Elsa bearing down. She's an iffy storm, could strengthen or weaken, no one is sure but certainly coming our way. 

So getting supplies. Sandbagging the guest apt., Chris's old apt. which is ground level. Bringing in outside things that could fly away. Draining the pool down. 

We are in a "state of emergency", shelters are opening, Tropical Storm warning. We are on the east side of the storm, so expecting at least heavy rain, high winds, possible tornadoes, storm surges 2-4 feet, etc. And with all the rain we have gotten these past weeks, the ground is already soaked, so trees falling, power lines, etc. 

I am stocked up. In a non-evac zone, so hunkering down. Grateful it's not a CAT 5 but could become a CAT 1, will see.

Already feeder bands hitting us.

Hate it that Bob isn't here. He loved a good storm. Feeling so alone.

That's all folks! For now.