Happy Winter Solstice!

 Today is the winter solstice, tomorrow I go in for a follow-up for my second surgery, which went well as far as the doctor got all the pins out of my hand, but I tell you, this second surgery hurts more than the first... Glad to the have the cast off, but now my hand and wrist is wrapped up tight with gauze and ace wraps.  I have been wiped out, unable to do much. Of course have to feed the critters, do the essentials, laundry, take the garbage out, load the dishes, that's about it. I instacart all my groceries, have them delivered, have to rely on friends to drive me to appointments, can't walk the dog, swim, write much at all --- feeling like a trapped rat.

My house is covered with dog/cat hair, dust and dirt. Some days don't have energy to wash my hair. Been binge watching Supernatural episodes, spending most of my time on the couch with my hand propped up to reduce the swelling, Kona always by my side, Ripley too at night.  Can't believe I've been laid up with this broken hand since September. Seems like a million years...

Still dealing with my sister's estate -- a mess, let alone the grief and guilt. Hospitals and doctors billed my insurance wrong, so that's a mess too, more paperwork, phone calls, etc. Can't sleep at night...

Good news is my father feeling much better, my nephew is staying with mom and dad helping them out.

Last Christmas

What a difference a year makes.....

Wishing everyone Happy Holidays and hopefully a better New Year.

Prayers Answered

 Happy to report, my father's surgery went well and he is recovering. Thanks all for your prayers, support, hugs, white light, phone calls. I feel like I can breathe again..... 

Though not looking forward to surgery next week.

Prayers Needed

As I type this one handed post, my father is undergoing surgery for a brain bleed after a fall. He is 84 years old, I am worried sick, so anyone reading this please send payers, white light, healing energy, positive thoughts

appreciate it 

Sliced and Diced

 And still have to go back for a second hand surgery, December 16th. At 5:20 a.m. Of all times...

The doc sliced my hand open in the office (those famous words) "you might feel a little pinch" --- YOW! I screamed so loud, I'm swear the whole clinic heard me, and he still couldn't remove all the pins, though he certainly seemed to dig around enough. So now has to surgically remove the rest.

So another surgery, another Covid test, then another follow-up on the 22nd, more bills... 

And my hand still hurts like hell.... in fact hurts more than after the first surgery....

At least the cast is off. Just wearing a bandage. 

Thanksgiving

By now, most of you have eaten the turkey or whatever you do to celebrate this day, counting your blessings, etc.

Me? Well fuck the pilgrims! Not feeling very thankful, thank you very much. Pizza tonight.

But thought I should post something, since I haven't in so long... this one handed typing is not easy and it wears me down, I'm sure many stroke survivors can relate! But then everything wears me down... this hand of mine hurts so much, sometimes I can actually feel the pins sticking through my fingers.,,,

But I thought I'd list some things to be thankful for: my parents who call daily, my friends who have helped me through this ordeal by picking up prescriptions, taking me to appointments, talking to me on the phone, and picking up stuff from the store -- can't get everything on instacart!... all things I can't do as I can't drive. I won't say I didn't try the driving thing, but learned fast how much one needs two hands -- backing up, turning the wheel. Man, was I in pain when I got home. OK, and thankful to have a home, etc. Many don't.

And of course Ripley and Kona! Who keep me company and never fail to make me laugh. I always knew Ripley was the culprit when I would find open cabinet doors, things strewn about the floor when I came home, but finally saw him in action, when I heard a noise and caught him red handed, or should I say red pawed? His head in the cabinet, stuff on the floor and when he saw me, he turned into NINJA CAT, I kid you not, flipping on his back, kicking the door closed with his hind legs and scrambling off like the cat burglar he is.  Or when both of them wanted to be on the couch with me, but evidently not room so Kona just plopped herself on top on the cat and all I see of poor Rip was his ears, "airplane ears" (you know ears stuck out straight like airplane wings) and very pissed off blue eyes. Flat as a pancake under an 80 lb. dog. Had to do a rescue on that one. 

Hopefully, will be feeling much more grateful next week. Doctor's appointment Dec. 3rd. to hopefully remove the cast, which is dirty, stinky, irritating, uncomfortable.....  and if all goes well, my hand healed enough, maybe I can get rid of the cast and finally vacuum the floor! Wash my hair, daily! Ditto take a shower! Swim! Walk the dog! Pick up the cat! Tend my gardens! And just do simple things like this post without so much pain and being so exhausted afterwards...... 

Wishing everyone a Happy Thanksgiving.

The Big Six - Oh!

 Today I turn 60 years old.....  kind of a shock ... still typing one handed... still in a lot of pain...  so just another day....   except a friend is bringing me a shrimp dinner tonight, so one thing to look forward to.

Sorry this blog has been so quiet.  I push myself to do little things, and I end pushing too hard and then I have to take a pain killer and just relax.

Kona and I are turning into two old fat ladies!